Nick Cannon Reveals Suicidal Thoughts After Friend’s Death
Written by B87FM on July 19, 2020
Nick Cannon is opening up about his suicidal ideas following the tragic demise of his good friend.
In a prolonged put up on Instagram on Saturday night time, “The Masked Singer” host mirrored on his psychological wellbeing and revealed that he thought of taking his personal life after the fallout from anti-Semitic feedback he made on his podcast.
“Simply after I thought it couldn’t get any worse… 2020 is unquestionably essentially the most fucked up yr I’ve ever witnessed!” wrote Nick. “After waking up & barely rising from my very own darkish contemplation of constant my bodily existence on this planet, this highly effective warrior really had the balls to do it.”
Simply days earlier than, he alarmed followers and mates after sharing a cryptic put up, which ended with “Goodnight. Take pleasure in Earth.” He additionally tagged his location in “Heaven.”
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Simply after I thought it couldn’t get any worse… 2020 is unquestionably essentially the most fucked up yr I’ve ever witnessed! After waking up & barely rising from my very own darkish contemplation of constant my bodily existence on this planet, this highly effective warrior really had the balls to do it. I’ve mentioned it as soon as and I’ll say it once more, this was the strongest dude I’ve ever met! Simply over a yr in the past a San Diego Police Officer rushed in his dwelling and unjustifiably shot him putting him in a coma for months. I stood by his bedside and promised him that if he made it out & fought the great struggle that I might make his dream come true and put his album out and share his story with the world. He fought and fought, he awoke, they stitched him up, he discovered to stroll and discuss once more and inside months we had been again within the studio recording. Even by his energy he would whisper to me that “All the pieces Nonetheless Hurts”. His music was undoubtedly his protected haven and it was superb. Paying for legal professionals, placing cash in his pocket, even placing the music collectively all meant nothing as a result of I really feel like I failed my little brother. The Cops will get away with taking pictures one other child, everybody will simply have a look at this as one more loving farewell put up, however to me @ryanbowersob was a lot greater than that. As soon as once more my brother you have got put this world in perspective for me. You’ll do this very often as a result of I by no means understood how somebody who was experiencing sooo a lot ache might nonetheless chortle and smile by all of it. This picture was the final time we seen one another in individual. It was your first present again! Soldout crowd in our hometown San Diego and also you rocked it!! You had been so glad!! Proved to so many who you possibly can do it and that you just had been Tremendous Human! The best comeback I ever noticed!! We nearly made it little bro! However I suppose even flying Tremendous Heros need to land ultimately. However I’m sure that your power won’t ever die and your Spirit is everlasting, so I ask you continue to to forgive me for letting you down Warrior. I can’t assist however assume if I wasnt so engulfed in my very own bullshit I might’ve been there for you if you lastly took your life after a number of makes an attempt… Fuck this place!! #CantWin #ForLosing🙏
A put up shared by NICK CANNON (@nickcannon) on Jul 18, 2020 at 11:33pm PDT
The darkish ideas observe the demise of his good friend, Ryan Bowers, an up-and-coming rapper who Nick signed to his label. He was shot in his dwelling final yr by a San Diego police officer and was in a coma for months. After studying to stroll and discuss once more, he in the end took his personal life.
“We nearly made it little bro! However I suppose even flying Tremendous Heros need to land ultimately,” Nick wrote in his emotional tribute. “However I’m sure that your power won’t ever die and your Spirit is everlasting, so I ask you continue to to forgive me for letting you down Warrior.”
It’s been a tumultuous week for Cannon. The 39-year-old was ousted from “Wild ‘N Out” after making anti-Semitic feedback throughout an interview with former Public Enemy member Professor Griff throughout his podcast “Cannon’s Class.” His discuss present has been delayed till 2021, however he’ll retain his internet hosting gig on “The Masked Singer.” He has apologized to the Jewish group, however obtained backlash from his personal group for his apology.
Nick ended his message to Ryan on a somber word. “I can’t assist however assume if I wasnt so engulfed in my very own bullshit I might’ve been there for you if you lastly took your life after a number of makes an attempt,” he mentioned, including, “Fuck this place!! #CantWin #ForLosing.”
Celebrities together with Diddy, T.I., Cedric the Entertainer, and Grasp P have shared their assist for Cannon within the wake of the fallout.